Just Give me a Reason...This song moves me

     I cannot really think as of this moment about this paper that I am reading…. My mind was cluttered by the words which I cannot comprehend and fathom with…so, after hours of staring in my computer, and after blinking hundred times, I decided to shut it down. Good thing that I have my journal with me, so I get my pen and write something and anything that goes my head.

     I was moved by a song titled Just Give me a Reason by Pink…the beat and the lyrics budge me undeniably. It is indeed true…Some of us may think “we are broken” after we lost someone we dearly love like losing our parents, our first love and so on…or anything that may hurt us. These are the times when we think regrets is our fallback and the "what if" notions is our excuse. Listening to this songs makes me feel a bit of guilty and upset…mixed emotions I should say but somehow it is relieving…yes relieving that I was able to bring out my sentiments.

     Pink is right, I realized that I am not “broken” (torn to pieces either?), I’m just bent…yeah bent down …down to my knees for me to slow down a bit and learned what I missed in life. Sometimes learning begets hurting and vice-versa, God has way to show his love and guidance to us even if we need to learn the hardest way. Learning the hardest way is the most painful lesson a person may received but it is the most effective way to gain knowledge and wisdom so to speak. The way we can measure and test a person’s acumen and robustness are the numbers on how many trials/challenges that he/she surpasses. The strongest person to survive is the most experienced ones. People who undergone this kind of test are transform thru their words and actions…the way they perceived life and the way they value life. I considered myself as one of those people who was changed by tribulations and challenges. The pain…the losses and destitution I encountered are my sole mentor. Despite the big volumes that I shed for the past years, this won’t forbid me to pursue my dreams and my will to help and inspire others. The “light” that I created inside me throughout the years of solitude will never die…. Instead, it will rekindle the flames inside to create a bigger light. 

     Somehow I feel so emotional...I can’t help myself but to think of my parents, specially my mom, whom I recently lost. I just want to expressed my thoughts thru this blog how much I love her.  I will be forever grateful for the years that I have shared with her and with my dad of course… Though sometimes I failed her, and sometimes break her heart, I know deep in my heart that she never stops loving and understanding me and never turn her back against me. The love from a mother is immeasurable, infinite and overflowing.

     What I really regret is that I kept myself busy and make my decisions always  in a rush and regretting in the end because of what I “MISSED” in my life. I am preoccupied and too busy at work, sometimes I compete with "TIME" so now, I regret those moments... I can still remember the movie “click”...the philosophical viewpoint of the movie really fits me…where you can fast forward the events  in our lives and in the end, you end up regretting and desperately wanting to rewind our past so that we can fill in or catch up what we missed. For me, 29 years is not enough to suffice the love and care that my mom has given to me unconditionally. I don’t know what keeps me being sentimental this past few months; maybe I just missed my mom and dad….the feeling of being alone…. The feeling of having no one to talk to when you are all alone in your room…God knows how I am deeply saddened by those moments, but having thought that life here on earth is just temporary consoles my heart for it means that these pains and this “void” feelings will ultimately be filled in…. In due time…IN HIS TIME rather…. But as for now, I have to move on with my life…continue with the people that I still have to love and cling with and make sure that I will never let myself again in a hurry so that I will not “missed” the times that I still have…

     Though sometimes, I really feel the feeling of "being broken or shattered" however, the songs inspire me and keeps me reminded, that I am not BROKEN, I am just BENT, (to slow down) so I can learn to Love Again and move ahead....

as I sing some part of the song once more...

Just give me reason just a little bits enough, 
Just a second were not broken, just bent 
so we can learn to love again...

I never stopped, You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent so we can learn to love again...

Bora-Bora

I had a chance to visit Boracay last 2008 with my office mates at MCNI...we stayed there for  4 days 3 nights of fun  where every minutes and seconds that drops really counts. I'll be posting here some of my photos taken at Bora. We stayed at Regency Hotel and luckily the famous fire dancers were performing in front of the Hotel so we were no longer have to walk half mile just to see those dancers playing and dancing with their fire.

Upon arrival at Bora, we managed to took photos in front of the beach...

Obviously, our faces are in full blast of smiles and laughter

i am really overwhelmed by the beauty of this island....

the hotel where we stayed at BORA.....Regency Hotel (taken inside the lobby facing the interior part/view of the hotel)

strolling and  island hopping 

Jump shot!!! see how high my jump is???? really high isnt it?

wheeeww....i forgot this place, since this photos was taken 5 years past....Ohhh...i'm really aging na.....hehehe

inside our room

enjoying the fine sand of bora...but unluckily i wasnt able to take home some of this stuff...hahaha (bawal daw)

Ow i miss my slippers....this is the time when i lost my fave slippers. Comedy nga because i was slipped while taking board to the boat...and blaaaggggg.....dropped the other pair of my slipper so i threw away the other pair.... Who knows someone will find them right????atleast they can see the other pair of it...

lovely.... how i wished i can stay here longer...

I think this is one of the famous spot at Bora where you can saw lot of tourist taking their photos here...

hmmmm..... i'm abit of tipsy....

this one???? got drank na...hahaha

lovely sunset.....so romantic

the end.....

Exploring Davao City

Last November of 2009, when boredom is trying to kill us, me and my friends have decided to smashed up boredom so we decided to booked flights to Davao City. Upon arrival we immediately visited some of the various places and even tried to have some fun in the streets as we take avenge of our complaining and grouching bellies for street foods which is located at the front side of Ateneo de Davao University. I almost forgot the things that we did then,  since I still don't have my travel journal with me to jot down those special moments with my friends. Here are some few pics from Davao  that i have rummage in my laptops after some viruses was able to penetrated my precious files...

with my friends (L to R) Precious, me and Susie

heading at Samal Island

arrival at Samal Island 

Enjoying the clear water of the beach...though the sand is not as fine as the sand of Boracay, you can still enjoy  the serenity and beauty of this island. 

touring around Eden's Nature Park...the landscape, the flowers. trees are overwhelming.....

I had managed to wished in this wishing well full of gumamela flowers...isnt it lovely to look at???? but unfortunately, i forgot what i wished for...nevertheless, it doesnt matter to me anymore for as long as i'm enjoying my "tripcapade"

that's me.....overwhelmed by the view..hehehe

yeah...battling for starvation....a sumptuous lunch at Eden's Nature Park....the food are great! and affordable so to speak...

after satisfying my belly....we dare to take this zipline...susie at first was hesitant to take the ride, however because of my "kakulitan" I was able to convinced her to take the ride.....and as a result, I waited her for almost an hour before she was able to jump in....wheeewww....atleast she tried...and it was fun...nakakabitin nga lang.

We tour around Davao City found this statue abit quite interesting...(hehehe)

i took some pictures of the fishes but unfortunately was lost due to some viruses that attacked my laptop ...after these we were able to visit the wet market of MATI and bought some pasalubong,  the next morning we explore Ateneo de Davao and some stores fronting the universities were I bought some malongs and other native products at Davao..... so far, I am looking forward to visit again this place but my skeds is quite tight this day but will surely visit here soon and explore some places that i never visited...this trip is fun and worth a try...